From Comment Whore to Losing Friends; and Gaining a Whole Lot More.

So I've decided that I'm a comment whore.

Looking back at more of my earlier Xanga posts, I discovered that I was pretty popular. Most of my readers were my friends, but quite a few were just random people who discovered my site and enjoyed what I wrote.

I think that was the allure of the aforementioned blogging site - the excitement of the comments to come; to see what people had to say in regards to your posts.

It's a new-age way of communication that's not so new. Feedback from people is always nice, especially when they praise you for what you say. It's encouraging to know that you're not just spouting off useless babble (even though sometimes I know I did, but often even that turned into something somewhat intelligent), that they actually read and hear what you're saying.

My old posts also made me a little sad.

Only two or three of my loyal readers/commenters have remained my friends. The others just sort of...slipped away. People change and drift apart, I know, but it's also confusing when they tell you that you are "so awesome" and that they "love you sooooooooooo much" one minute, and the next they don't return your call for days. And then from there, it's the domino effect, where eventually they don't even call at all.

Funny how life turns out.

But I am very thankful for those who have stuck by me and remained the best friends I could possibly ever ask for.

I've learned that time is a good filter - as the years pass, some friends slip through the holes, but others, no matter how hard you may subconsciously try to shake them out, are too big and important to lose.

And those are the ones who make the losses worth it.